My biggest secret

I am not EVER usually open to others about myself, especially on social media, but I need to share my own success story because I hope to reach out to others and help them through the obstacles their life throws at them.

For as long as I can remember (way back to middle school) I have been suffering major depression and anxiety disorders.  This was something that I kept to myself for years, in fact, was never expressed to ANYONE else until a little over a year ago.  I go through stages when it gets extremely bad, to almost non-existent, which is very common for these disorders.  I always used to put on a huge act, that I was so happy, when in reality, I always felt as if I was in a dark cloud, holding this huge secret in.  My smiles were always fake, even if I couldn’t explain why I wasn’t happy.  I would often get confused why I was always so tired, unmotivated, sad, or simply just feeling like shit.  Excuse my French, but that’s the honest truth.  People always say, you have SO much to be happy about… I have an AMAZING and supportive family, I have friends who love me dearly, I’m been blessed with athleticism and brains, and a chance to be an Olympic athlete.. but that’s just it about these disorders.  Chemically there is something wrong with my brain that just doesn’t let me be as happy as I should be. 

With all this being said, I have been taking medications (antidepressants and Xanax) to get me through my dark cloud I felt was hovering over me for years.  Since being on medicine, I have felt like a completely better person.  I have more patience, motivation, energy, and overall am finally actually HAPPY! Unfortunately, being the health nut I am (for those who don’t know, I’m crazy about my health), I hate putting these chemicals in my body day after day to ease my depression and anxiety.  Essential Oils were brought to my attention, and I began doing my research on how they can help me.  I found an unreal amount of oils that could replace my medicines from my medicine cabinet, so I took the dive and experimented.  Using these oils daily, I have begun easing my way off the medicine, and still feel as happy as ever! It is an amazing feeling that I can use something all natural, organic, and chemical free to be HAPPY (and who doesn’t want to be happy). Though I am not completely off my medicine, my goal is to get off of them in the next couple of months, (with the help of my oils of course). 

Depression is something WAY more common than you think, and I am reaching out because I know I am not alone.  So to anyone who feels they are suffering, don’t be afraid to reach out to ANYONE.  You are loved and I promise you, there is a way to get better! :)